Today is my brother's first day going to ugama school. I went to send him this morning and took some pictures. It is a ritual for my family that my parents send each of us to school on our first days. Each of us have at least a pic taken on our first days of school. For me, i even have pictures taken on my first day in uni. Each of us have our different ways in experiencing our first days of school. When i was young, i was a bit too attached to my mom because i was the first kid and i was the only kid for more than 2 years. I was also a crier. On my first day, i spent few hours crying and spent the first hour holding on to my mom. According to my parents, im the worst among all my siblings. I might be the only one who cried on my first day. If i think about it now, i think it would be a nightmare for any parents to have a kid like me. The way i hold on to my mom, even the teacher couldn't handle it. I pulled anything that would stop my mom from leaving like baju kurung and even tudong. Owh. I just remembered something. If im nt wrong, my mom stayed with me on my first day of school. I guess i was a bit too dramatic when i was young. My siblings unlike me didnt cry on their first days. My brother was just quiet on his first day. My parents didnt have any problem sending all my sisters to school. Im posting with my fon now. If i could find old pictures, i woul put it up.

I've always wondered how do i get my own personality? Does it come naturally or is it affected by the things around you since you were born. I still remember that i discussed this with fatin. If im not wrong, Fatin believed strongly that the things around you determines your personality while i was the one who believed both. Both sayings are arguable.

I do believe that things around you affects your personality. These things can be almost anything. From yr parents, cousins, school environment, home environment, type of movies you watch and many other things. Everyone grew up in different ways, and this would affect their perosnality. Althougfh i believe in this, i dont cross out the other side.

Another side; does it come naturally? I also believe that you are born with your own personality. For example, one of my sister is very obedient and hardworking. She's been that way since she was young until now. For most cases in my family, my parents would encourage us to study hard but in her case, my parents encourage her to take more leisure time.

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Fatin here, As requested by Hanis to add on. I do believe in both but trust that its less on innate ability and more on home background and school factors. Yes, Somethings are natural, but i believe its more of developed from young based on principles and values taught by parents. Bringing this cultural background to school, where it is further shaped by the influence of fellow peers and the interaction between teacher and student, along with other determining factors which would take too long too write.

Whichever you believe is practically based on how much you know of the subject and your perspective of things. Im pretty Marxist, and i do believe everything starts from home, your social upbringing, the class differences (although thats pretty old-fashioned)and all that jazz. I mean, i do believe that averagely smart children with ultra rich parents have all the advantages over an average kid with poor parents, who has to develop a fixed mindset from young to ensure success. Im sure you can put two and two together for the rich kids.

Although i did sociology, i dont pretend to know everything. There are still alot of unexplainable cases like whats-his-name who was raised in a middle-class background with loving parents, and grew up to kill so many women. and of course, from my own experience. growing up and seeing smartass kids drift away from promising futures, some bouncing back, while others never recover. Likewise seeing kids from less fortunate backgrounds achieving amazing results. Everyone knows the school in K.Ayer holds some of the best students in Brunei.


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Doubts come with reasons even when you don't know it. It could just be instinct or intuition. You can have doubts even when its something that has not happened. Sometimes people try to deny and ignore it, but they usually get hurt in the end.

I haven't been blogging lately not because i've been having too much fun but i've been doing my work. I've been trying to extract resources from the internet, building sites, museums, uni library and things around me. I seem to have problem finding this exact topic for my assignment. It's housing condition in sheffield in the 19th and 21st century. For 21st century its easier but for 19th century, its quite hard as the books i can find from the libraray only dates back until 1900s. I went to the industrial museum but what i can find in the museum is not relevant to what i was looking for.

Aside from that, i've got other assignments such for law and property referencing and phase tests for almost all modules. It stresses me a bit but i'm coping with it.

Although there are a lot of work that stresses me, there are also activities that i do which i classify as stress reliever which balance things out. I have football, friends and fatin.

I can always be found hanging out at my friend's apartment playing games or just to hang out. The small circle of friends that i usually hang out with consist of my friend zyden, gdin and hadi. We live between 2km from each other, so i guess that's the reason why. Just by having a month to spend with them, we already have this chemistry that we get along and have our own inside jokes. Its fun to hang out with them that i don't feel so bad being away from home.

I've got football as a stress reliever too as i enjoy playing it. I have football almost twice a week now. One for fun and one for competition. I have a new group of people to play with and this group of people i realy look upto as they have high mentality to win. I hope that i will acquire this mentality fully as keep on playing with them.

You can say save the last for the best which is my girlfriend. Whatever and whenever i go through something i have my gf as she is only one call away. I know its just voice but sometimes you can feel someone's presence just by hearing their voice. Not only she's once call away but i can call her anytime as long as i want unlimited cause i've got unlimited minutes and texts to 02 numbers. So a simple headache can be cured in minutes by dialing her number.

I've got pictures to show and stories to tell but as for now, im not able to. I just wish that everyone in my family, friends and even people i just know by face are rich in health and wealth.

-hanis

Now, look at this picture. The building next to the ride is the same building as the one i showed you earlier and we went on that ride.



The ride was boring at first as it swung slowly but after about 15secs, we sort of knew what we were asking for. It swung up until we were upside down. It was terrifying but after a while it was ok. I think we were the first customers so we didnt know how it would be until we went on it. Overall it was fun but i would think twice to go on it again.